Wednesday, February 28, 2007
im so happy! 100 stones thrown away from me le. i told him I like him le.
below the confession content (I wrote in MS word then copy and paste to him):
Hmm. Ok. If u dun noe the person is u then I dun noe what to say le. Its obvious isn’t it? Ok. I like u. 2 months ago maybe. I dun noe why la. i jus like u. its like I always feel happy talking to u be it on the phone or face to face, playing reversi with u and stuff. But when I wanted to noe u better, u made me think that u dun wanna talk to me or in other words dun bother to reply me. Yepp. I really feel tat way.
And after much consideration and advises from friends, im trying hard to give up on u now. ha. Dun noe why i wanted to tell u this but I jus feel that I want u to know how I really feel since u ask me why am I mad at u. oh yah. Im mad at u at times when u acted so blur! I wanna murder u la. U made me think that im liking a wall. dun even noe I like you, dun bother to talk me, and ignore me. And sometimes u treat me so warm and sometimes so cold that made me dun noe what u really wan.
So ya. maybe u wanna to tell me straight and ask me to stop what im doing. Or dun treat me whatever u wan, u feel like. I jus wan u to tell me straight. But if u choose to avoid me, then its okay. I will be more than happy so that I will not give myself false hope. =)
At first he started giving excuses of why he didn't reply me for these FEW DAYS. Like what his com spoiled la, a lot of projects la and stuff. So I dragged him to the right path. Asking what he really feel about me. haha. and finally, he understand! He said he treated me as a good friend like his guy friends. And he keep saying sorry, saying he didn't expressed himself clearly. He say he treat all pple the same and wun intend to get a gf now. he was quite worried that I will treat him differently after what he told me cause he experienced it before. But honestly im okay. Seriously. Maybe because im giving up on him le, feelings aren’t that strong as before. Yepp. I feel happy actually. At least he noe. Didn't make me feel like a idiot liking him all this while. And liwen is moving on. Liwen is happy now. .im saying this for the fifth time I think including those to my friends, im getting my VISION M!! yippee!!!
I luv my life now. with supporting and trustworthy friends, caring parents, lame and funny siblings, nice house location( haha. im lame), warm home, new hp, big workplace now, really comfortable bed, new VISION M and no burden!!! hohohohoho…
PS: eric, really thx for ur motivation. I really wun dare do it without u. thx for giving me good advise too! I really appreciate it. Will definitely treasure our friendship. Hope ur wish comes true =)
Ps: ah lum, bear with the shit la. Haha. see, pple noe how shitty she is so dun waste ur time angry with her. Not worth it. Spend ur time to talk to me =)
Ps: pok pok! Thx for yesterday! The long tiring day of work dun seem to even happen when I met you. U made me laugh like crazy and its always a joy talking to u. dreamgirls next week? Yep yep. We must! We need to! Im missing u already. =0)
Ps: tung! This sun right? haha. so long nvr see u liao la and when im seeing u on sun, u will be leaving the next day for HK!!! Argh! I wanna go, I wanna go!! Take good care of urself there ok? U miss me. haha. I think I wrote it in few entries back then u will miss a lot of me. haha. have a safe trip there ar. See u on sun!!
